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[12 Apr 2005|03:17pm] |
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well. its been months.
i have nothing much to say except life never changes....
good things come.
bad things come.
i have a headache.
maybe ill write more oneday...
& maybe not.
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[18 Jan 2005|04:30pm] |
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sooo wow im a fag and havent updated in years.
heres a rundown:
jenny
diana
hurb/paul
nicky -- husband
larry -- pool wife
pierre
mom
strauss
kenny
bob
... others ...
just 27 after 27 after 27 fun!!!
yeahh.
heres another rundown:
mots v. 27
civil war 27
world war 27
myspace
the longobardis
resident evil 4
beach
any fast food establishment this side of the east coast!
anchorman/dodgeball/boston beatdown/kids
nickys bed
AIDS
dnd
bronco
rise against show
trasing el lawrences car
late nights
music
having children. (4 to be exact)
thats all i can remember.
theres probobly more.
i wish people would STOP bitching.
i wish things b/w us werent different.
i wish my new years hopes didnt already fall through.
what teh fuck?! im eating at jennys. life is god! all hail jeaniniffer1!~!!
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[31 Dec 2004|05:09pm] |
the past few days have been a blurr... a good blurr.
wed
went out with my aunt to stores and ish. i got to drive her rendevous, which is like a boat. then went to pank with her, met up with AIMEE <3 dani and jenny. had mad fun. went to mall, i cant get my ears peirced without a paretn which is madd beat. i was mad. then got nails and eyebrows done. fun ish. then jen and i went out with diana. fought with someone. ahem. then went to the mall, dunkin donuts, met up with nick adn strauss, went to nicks house. watched bootlegs taht sucked. me and larry conversed about zombies. =) we are best friends now. then paul and dano came at 12. then me jen and diana left at 1. it was good to get out.
thurs
went out with my aunt again. then went out with diana kenny and jenny to nicks/larrys casa. then went out to ruby tuesdays with strauss nick larry bob jen ken diana and i. funnnnshit. the waitress busted her ass !! then quick chek. then danielles for 10 min. lost nicks key =X but foundit ... diana <333 hahhaa then diana had to sell her tix at wawa.then back to nicks. then the entire crew went to danielles. kristen, tom, dan c, matt l were there iwht the party whore and brian nowicki, who fucked. heh suprise suprise. asshole. steve table and kim <333 HOLLA and jenn b. then diego, bev, dano and meghan came. it was fun. and interesting. i talked to strauss a bit. i wandered around tooke pics, i didnt drink. just didnt want to. i was upset for a bit of hte night. but thats how it goes. bartended a bit, coyote ugly style. hahah GOT STALKED (d$ and doodlebug know what i mean) it was good. then went to dnd with bergy summerer and summerers friend. saw jack and some girle. it was nice. i was falling asleep on the table tho. so i went home. haha kim and i are sisters and angels.
tonight
eatin din with the family. then hte longombardis. <3 i can not wait. <3 my gwar girles know why.
new years hopes
i dont do resolutions, b/c i dont know if ill get them done.
-- keep things between 'us' going. im really happy with where they're at. =)
-- try to do good in school, like i always promise. but fail.
-- keep up the friendships ive made, adn the ones i have.
tis all.
<33
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| it was only a kiss, it was only a ... |
[27 Dec 2004|04:29pm] |
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sunday
went to grandmas
madd ugly clothes
good ass food
then slept.
today
went shopping with mommy all day
got a lot more shirts adn shit.
yeah.
i cant wait til wed...
im getting my 3rd hole, in ear.
gettting nails done.
then 27 crew <33
i need to chill soon or my head is going to EXPLODE!!
yo. i fucking hate snow.
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| this is now. |
[25 Dec 2004|03:33pm] |
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yesterday:
was up at 8 ran around with moms bf, last minute shopping, driving was a bitch, but people were nice on the road. ewent to nicks wiht diana and dano at like 2/230. waited for strauss. went to wendys. chilled at nicks and watched bum fights. <3. i really really really enjoyin chillen at nick and larrys. got caught in a lie. =X. i hope i wont be grounded. went to dads. wrapped gifts. ate at outback. then holla holla sleep.
dad gifts:
kill bill vol 1
day after tomorrow
white chicks
shaun of the dead
disturbed dvd
gothica
dodgeball
hitman game for ps2
mini pocket radio
cd player
dvd/video player
cursive
blood brothers
the hives
the killers
another cd... cant remember
bop it --> haha
organizer
other little stuff...
moms gifts:
4 button ups
2 suit jackets
a skirt
3 zip ups
4 necklaces
2 rings
earrings
shoes
jeans
pants
then under shirts
pocket book
class ring
other gifts:
25$ coconut card
30$ from aunts mom/moms bf parents
200$ from my grammy and pop pop
and...
3 aunts/uncles
Grandma... are yet to be seen.
not bad eh ?
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| black cock down. |
[24 Dec 2004|10:36am] |
yesterday was a gooooood day.
im really enjoying the 27 crew... a lot.
i went to alanas wiht jenny like 10.
then called up mr. nick. and him larry kenny strauss bob and mike came.
i was in larrys car with kenny nick and larry. funnnnny. listened to hatebreed. beautiful.
went to fun time america, but it was closed.
so chilled at DnD.
we're making the heroin playschool set with working needle
then moshed in the parking lot. haha.
then to larry/nicks casa chilled and played pool til 2.
lots of laughs !!
<333
im definately going to chill with this crew.
me jenny and diana are starting our own hot pink bandana crew adn joining forces with the black bandana crew.
holla.
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| what up blood, what up cuz, what up blood, what up gangstaaaa |
[23 Dec 2004|12:33pm] |
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uhhhmm.
updation time.
sunday
dads beat as usual. got our tree stand and ish.
monday
school was gay. got in trouble with my dad for stupid shit, and helped decorate the tree.
tuesday
school =X. then slept all day at dads. heh.
wendsday/yesterday
school is fucking stupid. i really dislike it. moms bf picked me up early 'claiming he was my dad' with i did not find amusing. got taco bell <3 then went to the dentist. no cavities. i was in and out in like 15 minutes. i got home and showered. then hit up diana. her dano nick got me, then we got jenny. went to starland got our GWAR tickets, which im mad excited about. then... i dont remember so heres a list in no specific order:
quick chek
pizza
dNd
some kids house
nicks house
break ups
bobs house
cell phones
jammin
lil jon and east side boyz
bronco
gravity
<33
good shit right there. suppose to play DDR today. haha. we shall see....
right now everything is really looking good. =] i'm happy.
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| hallo everyone. your tears they taste o so delicious. |
[19 Dec 2004|10:42am] |
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recap the last four greatest days of my life.
wed:
mad beat at school. bergy called me up after i got out. round 430 went to HOODbridge. saw dan and steve. got xmas gifts. then to hs to watch her brothers concer choir... had checkers in the parking lot while listening to fall out boy outside of the highschool at 7:58. madddd awesomee !!! jenn b's my hero !!!! then after grabbed jeanine, then DnD. good shit. wound up seeing Edgar and his 'crew' there. then diego came. good shit. goood shiitt. i heart fukcing metal hardcore jenn b.
thur:
school mad beat once again. my lovely svedish sister kimmay got me, and tia drove up to DnD where we met up with D$$ kenny adn justin. DnD was amazing as usual. then walmart where we ran into caroline, howie, eric, will, adn wills gf. it twas fun.then went tokennys to get dianas car. justin went home, and we ventured to Barnes And Nobles.
fri:
had nothing to do bored aas usual. me and jsummerer chilled, wen tto DnD saw lynn olander and hre bf. sat there for like 2 hours. then drove me home, only to tellme i could go wiht him to his friends house. arrgh. went to the Mondoons [sp] where TARA lives, insane. so i chilled wihther, while jason played cards with novak, jason, strauss, and ohters. then he lost HAHAHA and played ppool with tara and me. EAST SIDE HOE. fun as hell !! went home like 1.
sat:
woke up at 3. alana came over round 8. did our makeup. diana came adn we went to blockbuster... for... ahem... and then shoprite, where it was a fucking party of kids from school. then to larrys. pierre, o'connell, nick, larry, bob, e-man, and strauss where there. had many laughs. especially on the BED !!! haha poor dano, he was all squished under our bodies. =P. then we got hungry so we hit up pank. i was mad cold, casue im rebel krystina adn i dont wear jackets, so dano was my savior. pank... gay ! then DnD, like ALWAYS. and thenn back to Larrys. TONS OF LAUGHS !! it was the best night everrrrr. larrys parents, well dad, scared the shit out of me !! OHHH and as dano put it was drunk off my ass, 16 guys had tohold me back from driving a car, and ihad vodka in my hand. <333 i think i feel a new crew beginning to form. holla holla.
aiight. well im off to dads today. soooo yeah. if no one calls me i will cry adn kill myself SO CALL !
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| this one time in 68, we had these charlies surroundin us. |
[08 Dec 2004|08:39pm] |
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i got my nails did. finally
i didnt try out for the musical. i am musically challanged.
bob dillan.
999.
yeah coach scarola called me up askin if i was doin track, i said no.
im a lazy mofo.
i had over a hundred texts today. im fucked up the ass.
boy howdy.
im doin so/so in school.
things seem to be better.
jenn b's party, actually petes party, was insane. heres what was said to me: "thats right im the mother" "shit shes tought" "dayum your the enforcer"
pop it like its hot. hah. so funny.
so my husband, well we're not going there. im just gona play it low with him a while then see what happens. because once again i feel cheap, taudry, used. hah. and we havent even dated yet. sucks.
i went to the nurse to get a tampon, even tho i didnt need it, and i got this bag full of goodies !!
List of Goodies:
Tampon box. 3 tampons.
Deodorant.
Shampoo.
Coupons.
it was utterly breathetaking.
who wants a girlfriend ? im available.
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| i hate your face more than life |
[03 Dec 2004|07:46pm] |
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-- im honestly fed up with all of you --
i call this winter cleaning.
getting rid of all the degenerates, assholes, jerk offs, and fuckers that are called friends.
this isnt exacted towards a specific person, but many.
sucks for you huh?
not knowing if your one of them.
and losing a good friend.
wana know why?
heres a list of reasons why im eliminateing people form my life.
</b>-- you hate me.
-- you never talke to me unless you want something.
-- or unless im in the same room with you.
-- im only thought of or sought after as a 'hook up' item.
-- you ignore me.
-- i mean nothing to you.
-- you lie.
-- your fake.
-- you pretend to be my friend.
-- you cause drama.
-- i feel used by you.
-- i dislike you.
-- or i chose not to associate myself with you </b>
to name a few...
am i really a disliked person? is there reason[s] unbenounced to me why i am treated to poorly or looked upon so less than everyone else? why no one cares how i feel, only caring if they're having a good time? why you feel the need to lie to me, when im the most understanding and forgiving person that ever walked this god fucking green earth? why do certain people treat you like shit. and spit on the ground you walke on. all the while smiling and having a good time with you? am i really that terrible? if so tell me.
fuckers.
on a lighter note
i have some of the best friends ever.
and you know who you are.
because i actually talke to you.
i confide in you.
and you listen.
and your there for me.
Thank you.
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-- Edit 2:42 saturday--
sometimes things should of been handled differently.
sometimes people arent what you thought they were.
sometimes your view on people change for the better.
sometimes you think your at fault.
sometimes you know your right.
sometimes people are fucking stupid.
i had a revelation... and im still contemplating wether it was good or not.
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i like getting to know people better.
6 hour conversations are nice, too.
<3
good night.
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| I'm Not Okay. |
[26 Nov 2004|07:47pm] |
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hokay.
first off. i had a so/so thanksgiving. i get two houses to eat at considering i like eating and i like being fat. i dislike feuding family members and nosy 20 year old cousins quizzing you on life. but them taters were good.
ehhh home is home. i have two. so im torn between them. whoever said it gets better, apparently died a very young age.
i failed english. still havent show my dad.
moms punishment:
-- no going out on school nights. at all.
-- no computer afterr 9
-- no phone after nine
in affect until progress reports
so its pretty lenient. but my fathers gona ass rape me with it.
i dont understand why they just cant be happy with me. if chose to fail english this marking period i did it because i wanted to. SAT words mean nothing to me, since i knew half of them already. SAT is strictly optional and isnt a forced test like GEPA or HSPA. so why should i be taught SAT words, definitions, and grammar? thats why i failed. rebel krystina.
love life is bleh. brian hasnt been in new jersey since... oh... friday... 7 days ago. yet im not sure hes it. i have alot of doubt, and im still searching. if you think your the one let me know. haha.
kenny makes me aggrivated! =P
myspace is the new heroin. if you want to become addicted to something. take myspace.
joe left me. edgars going to leave me. college starts in like 9 months. so everyone else is leaving me.
christmas is coming. mom took me shopping today. i noticed i got alot of brown. brown is the new green. green is the new pink. and pink just pink.
blah blah blah.
dano and i have had sex many times this week. sex and cookies.
im prolly going to get rid of my live journal because i see no point in it... no point.
exunte
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HOLLAR HOLLAR!
yeah heres who ive been hanging with past weeks.
jenny, jenn b or jenna, edgar, joe, diego, jess, jay sum, alana, sophia, kimmay, kennay, justin, meghan, dano, mike howard, nick, spex, deverin and justin.
tight.
lifes okay.
i have an F in english.
i have a B- in math.
so im dead.
word word.
brians in maine for the week. =( <---- sad me.
joes leaving for north carolina. =( <--- another sad me.
ill miss you! <33333333333333333333333
thats it.
certain people suck, others are okay.
end.
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| ignoring the words of you obnoxious little brother |
[04 Nov 2004|12:43pm] |
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hm. its been a while.
i really dont know where i last left off.
ill go back to friday.
friday bergy came and we went to J sum's house. we were suppose to go aslyuming with people. but they chickened out. and we had to wait for Js parents to come home cause he was babysitting his little sister. so we waited. i had the comfortable[est] couch in the world. and we watched the Japanese movie Battle Royale, which im in love with. i fell asleep on his couch. and bergy kept whacking herself in the face. it was funny. i had to be home by 2, so when J's parents came home like 1-130, we went to dunkin donuts and chilled at my house til 3. it was fun. i missed bergy and summerer. <3. so hopefully asylum this sat !!ON33!!111.
the weekend/mon/tue were ehh. i was at dads all the time. did nothing.
wed morning at 230 am, my grandma was admitted to the hospital. sucks. i dont know what to do with myself...
school is okay. brian makes it all worthwhile. i just cant read him. why? boys i need help. someone give me some advice before i scream. and there were circumstance, my sister helga, told me about last night, and it pissed me off X2351536543584736820946095438605437609284398507410545 that much. fuckin nigs.
last night hung out with edgar, justin, and bergster. went to dunkin donuts. and chilled there. i felt awkward, cause i had nothing to say... and i felt like an asshole because they invited me out and i just sat there drinking coffee. the coffee gave me a tummy ache =/. so it was like 1130 and i had to be home at 12, and bergy was taking me home, and we were talking about things. i love you jenn b. and i decided to call my mom and see if i can stay out later, cause everyone was headin over to joes. she said til 1. so we went there and i felt like i was going to throwup, and i felt like a complete bitch, cause i hate when people overreact about not feeling good, and i felt like i was... and i just felt really stupid. like i was trying to get attention. i suck at living.
i just dotn feel like me. and im sorry to all those who try to have fun with me around, but i just dont feel fun. like i dont feel like krystina. i feel somber and cynical about everything. and im sorry to all who i hurt. i keep thinking about things, and worrying over nothing. i feel like i cant talke to people becuase they wont understand. i wish,just one night, i didnt feel so meek and timid around people, and i could be boisterous and wild. another night like the old me, i think, would do me good.
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word.
i am the hottest barbie on the face of earth.
word word.
ill post pics this week after i get em.
hey brian, eat your heart out!
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| Skeet Skeets and Derka Derkas. |
[28 Oct 2004|11:11pm] |
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i think its the people who you surround yourself with that make life enjoyable..
kenny , jenny , and krys.
word.
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[23 Oct 2004|09:21pm] |
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WARNING: MAY CAUSE SADNESS, EMOTIONS, ANGER, DISCOMFORT, AND OR ANAL BLEEDING. DO NOT READ. I REPEAT DO NOT READ IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO KNOW WHAT I THINK OF YOU OR FEEL ABOUT YOU
fuck you all.
everybody. i dont fucking care if i havent talked to you in years. your an asshole. everyone who reads this is an asshole.
danielle:
you probobly won't ever read this, because i seem unimportant to you. no matter how many times you say to me 'i miss you and jenny and our little 'posse''. do you really mean it? i havent spoken to you in about 2-3 months, except for science class where we usually ignore each other or make fun of each other. your off with that lesbian, matt and tom. are me and jenny not good enough for you? that is bullshit that you felt you had no friends and had to hang out iwth other people because we never called you... well you never called either one of us and still havent. fuck this shit. dont blame it all on me that you cant pick up the phone, or taht you ignore us in the hallways. i know you said you didnt see either one of us... but still, thats no excuse. now you want to hang out with us? i understand taht your going through stuff and i dont want to add onto it, but if you woulda called me at any given point and said 'krys what are you doing tonight' or 'oh hey lets talke' i would of. i am not a shallow person. i would of gladly talked for hours. and if you felt left out why didnt you say so? me and jenny have been hanging out because you found your 'new posse' and you have a boyfriend. im sorry this is offensive. and im sorry if this hurts, but i can not keep this from my best friend. i hope everything in your life turns out better. and everyone and everything thing becomes a lot easier and alot less difficult to handle. i only wish the best of luck for you. i am here to talke to.
i miss you and i love you dani. lets not mess up our friendship on account of others.
<3
edgar:
i feel like we avoid each other. and that we dont want to be with each other. i feel horrible for saying this but i feel like we aren't friends anymore. i know we hang out, but i mean... things are sincere anymore and i know theres drama in your life and things are happening and people are changing, by whay does our friendship feel like its changing? like neither of us gives a fuck anymore?
you know i love you to death, and i hope everything that happens now and later on in your life is wonderful. i hope that november brings you nothing but joy and happiness and eveything that seems out of place and chaotic, becomes easiers and less hectic. you are, after all, mine and danielles hero.
<3
brian:
you'll never read this and i honestly dont give a fuck if you do. but last night when you were drunk off of your ass, you made yourself and not only me look like fools. i felt like a complete prick. you were an asshole last night. all i do is praise all the good things about you to my friends and tell htem how much i'm in love with you, and what do you but make me look like a complete incompitent prick. you contradicted everything i said about you. i dont understand. i am pissed as hell at you right now, yet i know by the end of the week ill be swooning over you...
i dont get it!
fuck everyone else right now!
FUCK FUCK FUCK you all!
the only time anyone reads this is to commentn about themselves. selfish fucking assholes you all are.
you all are assholes. i dont care if ur my closest friend, right now i wish you to hell.
i cant not stand this. i do everything for everyone but myself. and when i do act myself or do thigns for myslef i am a complete dickhead.
i am not going to incompitent or stupid around anyone any more. i am not going to feel this way anymore.
fuck you all.
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[22 Oct 2004|08:46pm] |
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holla !!
aight well i guess i shall update from .. friday [?]
friday:
dont remember shit.
saturday:
fathers. gay.
sunday:
grandma and aunt came down from whiting/toms river.
monday:
dont remember shit.
tuesday:
dont remember shit.
wednesday:
hung out with D, edGRR, joseph, and franklin. fun ass shit. they came to move a dresser for my mother. it was funny as hell. had to be there. then mickey D's with the neverending cleveage. YAY ME! then DnD for mah coolata. driving around. then D had to go home so we dropped off edgar and joe and BERGY!!! <333 came and got me TOOT TOOT. then we went to DANOS and he drove around the 'community' it was fun. then dano left and bergster and i headed to joes. chilled there. i was crushed to death by one edgarIdioto. mhmm. i died 10.20.04. but i revived myself. ;0P went home. watched the yankees be assholes and lose. oh yea did i mention assholes?
thursday:
school again. nothin really. [nothing important anyway]
then went to jennys after escuela. then D and Frank came. went to D's house to piss, met up with Eileeny Weenie, Mommy, and Dano. chilled and pissed at D's then went to coinstar. 17$ in change bitches. then went and drove around illegally some more. then to Rag Shop for Pep Rally shit. cha. bitches tehre thought i stole garland, i was like hey fuck you. then Quick Chek and met up with Bergy and sat outside QC like dorks. it was nice tho. then bergy jen and i went to joes chilled there. watched castro fall on his face like an asshole. hey did i mention asshole?
friday:
ack pep rally day.
frank painted his body blue. hes awesome.
drank some malibu/orange juice. and vodka/soda. both tasted like shit. GAG then pep rally sucked. the freshman are assholes. did i mean ASSHOLES?! they threw fucking full bottles of bubbles, i got hit on the side. and fucking spray cans. so the juniors threw mustard at them. so gay! and fucking assholes, did i mention assholes? fucked up our school. o yeah and other assholes, did i mention other assholes? dickin around and we couldnt have homecoming. ARGH. so gay. so now im at jennys eatin ice cream.
halloween costume barbie.
i am still MADLY IN LOVE! <333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333
oh yeah ..
Assholes Make The World Go Round...
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| Whoa-O oo OO Whoa-OO. |
[14 Oct 2004|09:41pm] |
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ahh lets see.
mah gantsterz partii saturdaii was fantastic. dressed up. looked pretty. went to dennys. got picked up by these guys. called them. his name was Chris. coincidence? maybe. then to brians for like 5 min. a drunk kid kept asking me what i was looking for. i was like... nothing... heh.
dads til wed. nothing special. got new bras... 34 C! dizzam.
then yesterday hung out with joe, frank, diego, and edgardito. <33 my loves. went to BK!! and lawrence harbor. got stoppped by cops 3 times and harassed by skinheads. it was a crazy night.
schools is horrible. i am sick again. i feel incompitent. i wana do things but feel to weak to do them. [ like homework, cleaning, hanging out with people ]
idk about brian.
heh.
too much grey area and not enough black and white.
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[09 Oct 2004|08:52pm] |
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tonight.
my house.
gangzter danse off.
one one !!11 oh mMm gee exclamation !!one.
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[09 Oct 2004|08:39pm] |
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<3 love is ...
krystina and andrew.
lmao jen!
no but seriously.
i love my brian. <33
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[09 Oct 2004|07:41pm] |
[ ] date with my love.
[X] babysitting. no gwar.
[ ] formal black adn white soiree.
wow. my life blows.
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[09 Oct 2004|12:23pm] |
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ok. i am not going to do what has been done to me before.
i refuse to be walked all over.
taken for granted.
toyed with.
used.
left alone, only to find another poor sucker, to lay my pathetic life on.
if u want to be with me.
then do soemthing about it.
im not going to attempt to make it work any longer.
im not going to try any longer.
im not going to text.
im not going to call.
if you want to be with me, you'll do it all.
im fed up with this bullshit.
with the same things always happening.
i will not tolerate it from you.
if u dont want to be with me. say it.
dont ignore when i make the attempt.
dont ignore when i try more than you do to make it work.
dont ignore me.
i am semi-in-love today
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[09 Oct 2004|01:10am] |
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yeth. well.
tonight was awesommmmeee.
lani and D$ came and got me then we picked up Zoodlebug. we went mallin' it up. haha saw dani and other peepz. swear on all of our lives we saw correia and gosick. so i texted him,s aying i saw him at the mall. lewandowski calls me, yells at me saying how could he be at the mall since he was with him, then askes me to go to the movies with him. HAH
there were these army sluts in the car next to us waving. i thought he was cute. he was waving and smiling and staring. god damn. i love boys.
then we went to Dennys. had smotherin cheese fries and pumpkin pie. MmMm. lani and i made bacon/pie flavored cigarettes. it was fun.
then we went walmartin. yes. and got gum. haha.
then to dunkin donuts to use the commode. we saw KIMMAY and KENNAY. amazing. chillaxed there. put lipgloss in kennys hair. good shit. gooood shiit. then we got kicked out. why? cause they were 'cleaning'. arghargharghargh.
then parking lot we chilled. nipple wars. and porns. yes.
we panked it up, and i was staring/got stared at by these fine lookin sweds. so kim and i did our SVEDISH impressions, because after all, by blood we are swedish. and we are sisters. therefore we are swedish sisters. i made kennys nipples go into defense mode. spec.tac.u.lar
then hom.e i had an awesome night.
Tomorrow's Things to Accomplish:
[ ] date with my love
[ ] babysitting. gwar sitting.
[ ] formal black and white wine party at lanis casa.
i'm still in love!! <33333
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[07 Oct 2004|03:01pm] |
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im in love im in love im in love im in love im in love im in love
yeah so i got asked to 'hangout' this weekend with my hubby. aka. date. =D yes!
aww.
im missing him already.
this 3 day weekends gona kill me!!! =(
<3
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[06 Oct 2004|09:44pm] |
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hey ya'all
yes i am in love.
le sigh
schools good lately. been sick, but i am better. hooray!
yes. homes been okay. it was my bros bday on mon.
we went to continental airlines on sunday for WWE wrestling thang. it was ok. then on mon we went to NY MSG for wrestling, again, with my dads g/f. it was cool. mad good seats yo. mad good. saw beavers on the train home. mhmm. also my grandma did my laundry at my dads, and this WHITE SKIRT that is NOT MINE was in the laundry... wonder waht my pops was doing... ... ... ... ..... ... ewwwwwwwww!!
yeah...
i need to hang out with someone soon. before i die.
i love my hubby. soon he will be mine!!
sooo yes. driving is amazing.
doodlebug is amazing.
the killers are amazing.
tata for now.
PS sexcuse me.
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[01 Oct 2004|04:11pm] |
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today is moms birthday!! <3
hopefully my gramps will let me drive =) yay.
jenny mite sleepover.
hopefully ill go out tonight.
today was good. <333 in great thanks to my hubby!!!
yeah. im stuffy. ARGH!
yeah. im so tired. why?
i wish i had important things to say, things taht are worthwhile, things that people would say 'dammmmmmnnn' that bitch is lucky.
:: burp ::
excuse me.
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[30 Sep 2004|10:59pm] |
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i love edgar, joe, jess, diego, and frank. <3
good freakin times!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
good freakin night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-minus- my cold.
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[30 Sep 2004|04:23pm] |
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okay.
lately things are okay. nothin really.
schools schoolish.
i havent driven since sat.
moms bday is tom.
bros bday is mon.
my cars getting fixed. so thats a plus.
hugn out with kickass people the last week.
last night hung out with jess, jenny, joe, diego, and edgar.
it was ok. i was tired. and bitchy.
when am i not bitchy.
oh well.
deal with it.
jen and i joined track. + math club. maybe bowling. + we have stage crew. all this in winter. heh. its cold out. yay.
i feel so icky today. im sick. gaross. im stuffy and i have a headache.
im talking to doodlebug aka zelda.
yeah. i miss my hubby. i love him. :: sigh ::
im bored. anyone wana play with me?
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[26 Sep 2004|11:48am] |
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last night was good.
diego came at nine. i showed him pics from lanis LJ which EVERYONE should check out!! mhmm. went and got dano. then to joes. watched joe play Fable. i kept falling asleep but Dan and Diego kept wakin me up! PUTANAS!! then we drove around a bit and i said i wanted a slim jim. so we went to 7 eleven. got a slim jim and a slushie. then we drove around somemore. Dano requested Goatwhore for me on WSOU. still havent heard my song! BASTARDS! then took dan home.
then went to white castle got some mozz sticks that had like ecstacy or something in em. then i called SOU and no Goatwhore. Diego let me drive around shoprite. =) was cool. then we sat in front of some chick laurens house. she wasnt home. then to joes. got a CD mix =) and watched some kill bill. good night. good times.
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[25 Sep 2004|01:11am] |
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well
yes i have a new crush. suprise suprise. im so shallow. oh well. haopefully this one will work out... hes in like 2 of my classes. but we walke eachother to class if we see each other. i have so many lates cause of him but i dont mind <3333333
then today patsy drove me home. it was nice.
schools all bullshit with the lunchs/SATS/kids getting hurt/senior half day nonsense/homework . i hate it. im fed up.
yesterday hugn otu with diego/frank/jenny for like X53512354r32 hours. it waas cool. i catn remember if i updated abut that already. oh well. im eXtremely tired.
tonight hung out with feeshfuck baybay [d$] lani and kennay. went to vintage vinyal got mom 3 aerosmith albums for her baday coming up. went boy hunting at menlo mall. barnes and nobels where we took mad hawt pics , which hopefully lani will post soon =) then to ihop. horrible food. we made sure we didnt pay, or at elast i did. lol. then to walmart, trying on little boy clothes.then dennys to get real man food. chilled there made fun of the pseudo punks. then to DND for dianas munchkins. then home.
i am an asshole. i am.
i hate how when im tired. im an asshole. i am sorry.
yeah more late. maybe not but oh well. no one comments this shit anyway unless it deals with them. hahahahahahhaahha. sucks doesnt it.
idk im rambling. oh well. mr. S's class is fucking weird. i dont appreciate it at all.
heh. i guess its okay. as long as i pass. yeah. english blows. idk things have been amazing yet they ahvent.
ok im done.
not!
no seriously im done.
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ok.
yesterday school was queer. last night went out with diego and dano. then DnD where we found lani and kenny. hung out there. jill and mikey W came. so did bergy!! <33 tight shit yo. we got in trouble again. lots of laughs. to tired to write em out. then bergy dano lani kenny diego and i went to the boro. i almost stepped on a frog and then lani kept dropping it down the slide. the poor thing had 27 brain leasures. haha. then bergy and i went to krausers then home.
today school. ok. i have a new crush. yeah thats right GAT OR DONE. haha. then a/s jenny came ova [half day] chilld ate did shit. then went to diegos with frank. then Varisty soccer. my poor nikki =( then to DnD where i got a meat bagel and coolata. dammit im fat. then to 7=11 to get slim jims and iced tea. then skatepark and saw summerere!~!!! DINGDONG!!!<333333 and timmy who lookslike he brushes his teeth with a vagina. tried to get hold o' dano. no go. then droopped jenny off. then went to boro. saw JIM!! haha. then frank diego and myself talked. lots of funny ass shit! ill update all that crap tomoorrow. im beat.
peice
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ooohhh yeahh!!
and jimbos suppose to ask me out.
oh goodness. i dont know... ill probobly tell him no again. i mean its jimbabwae. then again....hmm... we'll see what happens.
dan and i are communicating. i guess thats good. hes still a dickhead.
Edit_3:48
i take that back. dans a BIG dickhead. heh. some people just dont ever change although you want them or feel you need them too.... hmm. i think hes afraid that if we hang out again he'll fall for me again... god damn how i wish it was true... although i hate him.. i just cant stop. hes like a cavity and even though it hurts, you suck air in to make sure its still there......... damn cavities. damn dickheads. damn dick cavities.
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hahaha. my boobs are huge. mr.S was checkin me out.
i love it!
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[18 Sep 2004|06:58pm] |
i need a boyfriend.
i am a nice girl.
i need a nice boy.
i am a cool girl.
i need a cool boy.
i am a girly girl.
i need a not-so girly boy.
i am a tough girl.
i need a tough boy.
i am a small girl.
i need a 'big' boy.
i am a 'smart' girl.
i need a smart boy.
i am a funny girl.
i need a funny boy
i am a girl...
you are a boy...
isnt that enough?!
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[18 Sep 2004|02:54pm] |
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Main Entry: bore·dom
Pronunciation: 'bOr-d&m, 'bor-
Function: noun
Date: 1852
: the state of being weary and restless through lack of interest
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| Tuuurrrttlleee Blllassstttt !!! |
[18 Sep 2004|11:01am] |
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ahh. so last night was good.
hung out with mah peepz, joe, diable, edGRRR [finally after a million years of not gettin any lovin !], dano, mom, pierre, and patty. it was good.
kinda beat in the beginning i was tired and wanted a bed. then i felt outta place when we went bowling... until i got the third highest score of 95!!! [dano and joe= 108] ohhh yeaahh!!
then DnD!!!! YES! pat and rob were there =( fags. diego and rob played catch with me. not right! then went inside ... edgar got me a COOLATA and took his turtles, only because he offered them!! dammn those turtles are glorious! ate a donut.. the wrong way. did other stuff.. but some secluded themselves from the gang. why? i do not know. but it makes me sad =( went to joes. got raped. got raped some more. then yeah ... raped again. hahahahahhahaha. played under the blankie like michael jackson does! hehehe. oh lordy. they dropped me off =( i was six min late and mom complained. but whatever. then i went to bed and had a crazy ass dream!
dano called and asked to come to my house cause he like locked himself out or something so i said sure. so he came over and fell asleep on my moms bed and went to bed on mine. i woke up and diego called to go hang out. so i tried wakin him but it was wayyyyyy to early. so i left. so diego and i are driving around.. with doctor piccuro with us.. ?... and there was a TON of cops out. so diego goes im gona gun it through school drive and avoid all the traffic. and im like diego theres mad cops there dont! he does and now we're getting chased in the school parking lot and hes driving CRAZY! and im screaming my ass off. and hes all i can lose 'em! we crash... by Quick Check and it was sooo fucking scary. then there was a ton of poeple and i didnt care if i was hurt [even though i REALLY WAS] i wanted to know about diego and dr P and i didnt want the media there cause i didnt want my paretns to find out. [how gay i just got into an accident adn didnt want my paretns to find oout although everyone from school was there!] so i cried. and cried. and this black kid was there and i guess i knew him so he hugged me then sucked my ear...? i dont know. then i saw roy and ran over and cried on his shoulder. then this guy who looked like mayor kennedy obrien took me into this shack adn asked me all these questions about the night. and i couldnt remember and i cried over that. then after a million hours he let me go. i went home and my mom was sleepin on the couch. so i checked on dano and he was still sleeping. so i walked passed the bathroom, and dano was in my tub with his clothes on just staring... so i went to my mom and i was like mom... i need to talke to you. started to cry. and wokeup SCARIEST THING EVER!
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:: clears throat ::
alrighty.
today was a good day. its been a change of pace. i enjoyed it thouroughly.
woke up at 5:30 shit/showered/and shaved.
7 diego came. took me to school. listened to the KILLERS and TBS <33 yesssss!!! [ my hardcoreness is fading... damn scenesters! ]
first period lani and mommy and i had to cheat on our quiz. no julio =( boo.
second period gym. nothing good. i have to talk to someone and confess somethings... yeah. thats never good.
third period went to D10. no sci teacher. mr. s + krys = <3 met FELIPE. dammnnnn yo that boy is f-i-n-e !! hes awesome... hes my new friend. nothin happened in sci. gay.
fourth no teacher mayor kennedy obrien spoke to my class about sayreville. he asked what we wanted different and went into this whole speech with eventually ended with..."to high of taxes. no money"... basically means no AC/Heat in school. or extension. boo.
fifth souji and i are partners in theatre. i get to play a girl whos brother sees a 6ft rabbit named harvey ::aka donnie darko <33:: and eventually i confess i see them. woo.
sixth lunch=lame. :: not my boo boo tho! <3 ::
seventh math is awesome. got an 80 on my quiz. preston is the best teacher.
eighth journalisms so/so. but this soph is so damn annoying. i wana rip her lymph nodes out!
after school improv troupe. doodlebug and i watched. saw patsy <33333333333333333333333333 damn he gets finer everytime i see him! talked. i love him. oneday ima rape him! then didnt have a ride home.. blah blah all this controversy.
saw alot of people today in school. it was tight! schools getting better, gradually. just have to get back in the swing of things.
hung out with diablo/mom/joe last night. it was nice. they're my favorite people. i love people. hey whats your name? oh yeah... i dont care i love you!
yes. good day. WANA HANG TONIGHT? im going to dads tom =( sooooooo IM me!! </>
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who here wants to marry me ?
first come first serve!
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i am sexy.
dead sexy.
aren't i?
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so schools been lame.
people. wont name names but. people are lame.
my family is lame.
my moms been lame. =( we fought again. but i love her still so much! <333
being a girle is lame.
but being the HOOLA HOOP QUEEN is lovely.
exunte.
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why?
why is it that once you get rid of someone, you discard them, and shake them out of your mind, presence, and being altoghether... that you want them back later on even more ? it baffles me. i mean i got rid of him. i felt used. and now ... i want him back x20 more than before. what should i do?
i have mad homework tonight yo! damn. 3 hours right there. i was late the first three days of school. way to go krys.
sat night was utterly amazing.
jill f. diana lani jenny and myself went to pank where i made a french fry house complete with fork trees. it was beautiful. then dropped jill off. then to DnD for me! yes! ordered a meat bagel with cream cheese. dropped it =( took jennys other half =) yes sir. the guy that worked there, his name was Subhash. i wish my name was like Milksalami. thatd be cool.... anyway. we went to walmart where i boought tough glasses and hoola hooped around the store. then we got yelled at by a black women and lani went BALISTIC! played marco poloi n the store. waited for kenny outside and rolled around on shopping carts! woo. it was cool. then to dennys where i spilled my soda =( boo. and got into an arugmetn with KENNAY. yessum. drove with kenny to kennedy park. and we all chilled there. i invited them into my castle.. hehehe... yep.
jenny slept over fri/sat. we got hit on sat afternoon by CHUCKIE CHEESE! when i get the pick ill post it but it was wonderful! <33 why must all my lovers turn out to be rats? hah.
im also losing touch with those that are close to me. i feel like im slipping wiht friends to keep my school above water. i dont know. i feel left out.
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wed i came home from dads. woo. streaked my hair. drug fair. blah blah getting ready for school.
thurs was school. it wsa okay. my classes are pretty good. my teachers are anal. mr.s my sci teacher hit on me.. haha. yeah. dan c sits in front of me in gym! should be fun. heh. yeah. two hours of homework! argh. dani came over. my cousins 3rd bday . had a family dinner thang. i drove.
fri was school. woke up an hour late. got to school at 815. didnt get a chance to showwer =( school was okay. doodlebug came homew ith me a/s. i showered. my autn took me out driving. we hung out with mom, joe, pierre, diego and patty. haha meat bagel/popsicle. yeah dunkin donuts. joes house. howies house partay thang. drove around. ima bad friend to patsy =(
today drove EVERYWHERE. went to chuckie cheese. JEN AND I GOT HIT ON BY CHUCKIE!! (mostly jen tho LMAO) got a pic with him <33 it was nice. went to the dollar store. bought evrythign! went to drugfair/dollar discount boought undies sneaks and gum. it was good time.
alot of inside jokes at school and shit. to lazy to write. perhaps later.
now we're heading off with FeeshFuck baby (diana), Lani , and Jill F. funnnesss!! =)
your lipstick
his collar
dont bother, angel
i know exactly what goes on
haha yes!
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[11 Sep 2004|08:12pm] |
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yerp
nothin much has happened.
[list of my week/end]
billiards
fridays
cheesecake factory
six flags
ocean grove
coconuts- hawthorne heights [me] weezer[dad] queen [dad]
chi chis
jasons furniture store
meeting dads 'girl'friend
menlo mall
woodbridge mall
eb mall
mandees
other shizzle.
yeah schoool was aight.
i wish the crew coulda got together one last time... coheed was it. =[
alas R.I.P Summer Night Crew '04 <3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333
yeah more tom. i tired.
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